I don't understand why these things happen. I don't understand the significance of life. I have yet to determine why I'm here - why anyone's here - and then, all so suddenly, not.
Sometimes I see so much beauty in the day; sometimes I feel as though I'm getting a grasp on meaning and purpose.
Today is not like that. My heart hurts.
I'm losing my faith. I can feel it escaping from me with each passing breath.
I've been thinking about human life. What if all we really are is a strange combination of atoms; a brilliant number of chemical reactions; a jumble of neurons, protons and electrons. What if that's all we are and nothing more.
What if they're right and we're meaningless and finite.
I still pray for comfort.
I was so close to telling you everything. I haven't figured out if I'm thankful I didn't, or if it was the worst mistake I've made.
Either way, it ends the same. Either way, we die: dirt and dust.
Sooner than we originally planned for, I think.
--- Sorry, the world is dark today.