even though i told myself you wouldn't
i've still been fooling myself into believing that
none of this can touch me
but it does
i melted into you
and got used to the taste of my words
coming from your mouth
sometimes i think i wished you up
but i should have wished for longer
for the nights to go forever
and the mornings, stretched into eternity
a pot of coffee, fresh on the windowsill
you have a way of making me
completely terrified and completely comfortable
you're a walking paradox
and no matter how long i look
you still surprise me
we're robots, the two of us
only, i'm afraid you're better
because you left me sad
when i told myself you couldn't.
S.
{Photo: Mondixneuf Flickr}
Oh this breaks my heart and bleeds me in all the best ways. Pain is such an addiction of the loveliest and most destructive nature.
ReplyDeleteS... my 'him' left me sad... I keep thinking I'm over him but then I know I'm not.... Your writing is exquisite and so touching...
ReplyDeletethere is always something about your writing that I find to be deeply personal to me...
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like my love life. You're a better robot. Love that. It's so hard to leave and it's like you should but you can't and when he does, you realize you should have first. Love this.
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