Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Beautiful Things

Beautiful people, beautiful places, beautiful moments and memories. I'm so happy.

This weekend was banquet for our grad class, and it was wonderful. I think it would take me the rest of my life to look through all the photos taken of that day. It was just so beautiful.

I'm so thankful for all the people in my life - the ones there to watch, the ones that wished they could have been, and the ones standing beside me. I want to store all of my memories up and never lose a single one.

Love you all Grad 2011!


Monday, 30 May 2011


A word easy to pronounce but difficult to verbalize.

I'm working on it.

Friday, 27 May 2011

Last Words.

I was overwhelmed recently with the hauntingly beautiful
and poignant last words of a world renowned artist.
La tristesse durera toujours.
"The sadness lasts forever."

Vincent Van Gogh

Tuesday, 24 May 2011

Emptiness vs. Pain

As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart. You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable.
Wizard of Oz

Monday, 23 May 2011

Is It Okay To Feel Beautiful?

This week at work I told a coworker that she looked cute and she misheard me, she stopped and asked me to repeat myself. When I did, she said oh, for a moment I thought you were saying that about yourself. And at the time I laughed and shook my head and carried on. But it got me thinking. Why not? Why would that be the type of thing that, if said, you would stop and say, sorry I must have heard you wrong.

I do struggle with body image, although I'm working on it. But I wondered, if I was able to look at myself and be happy, in love with, and - yes - proud of what I saw, would that be acceptable?

It seems to me that in this society, we are supposed to feel badly about how we look. We are bombarded daily with ads and images that tell us again and again that we are not beautiful enough. Yet, friends and family tell us daily that we are. It seems, though, that should we start to believe them, to fall in love with our own quirks and shape and style, then we will have become egotisical and conceited. It's a thin line; loving yourself vs. being full of yourself; respecting your body vs. idolizing it; being humble vs. disliking yourself. And I think often, we don't know how to do one and not the other, or we do, but it can get mistaken for what it is not. And I wonder, how we will learn?


"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight." 1 Peter 3:3-4

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Still She Paints Her Heart Among The Musings Of A Boy

I always wish I was stronger. More refined. Smarter. More graceful. Talented. Someone others admire. But mostly, I always wish I would just love who I am, without wishing to be anything different.

Sunday, 15 May 2011


The rain sounds gorgeous - invigorating - pounding on my window, safe from the storm.

It is nice to be alive tonight.

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

Let The Sweet Whisper of Thankfulness Take Over.

They left me with your shadow, saying things like 
life is not fair
and I believed them for a long time
But today, I remembered the way you laughed 
and the heat of your hand in mine
And I knew that life is more fair than we can ever imagine, 
if we are there to live it.
Brian Andreas
{Photo: We Heart It} 

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

We Find Our Freedom When We Let Go Of Our Chains.

One of the (many) things I like about my friends is that, for the most part, we're a pretty drama-free group.

If something arises, it tends to be short and sweet, just long enough to remind us why we avoid that sort of behavior in the first place.

I like that. I like not striving to create a crisis. I like just living the simple life, appreciating privacy, and learning to let go when things start to hit the fan. To let the dust settle. Because it will.

Not every one is like that. High school is full of drama seekers, and the attention starved. But today I am thankful that the people that matter to me are not, and that we choose to move on and find the peace in a place that has the potential to be chaos, if we let it.


PS. I bought myself a very nice pair of wooden earrings today. Pleased.

Sunday, 1 May 2011

I Am Lost, Will I Ever Be Found?

I've got something to say, I've forgotten how to pray. And I'm finding it hard to believe the truth.

I've got something to say, right now it feels like You are slipping away. Like I am drowning in a crisis of faith. Like I'm alone.

I've got something to say, what was black and white is grey. And I'm finding it hard to believe in You.

And faith might mean there won't be answers. And hope might mean enduring through the night. But help me not forget in darkness the things that I believed in light.

I've got something to say, right now it feels like You are slipping away. Like I am drowning in a crisis of faith. Like I was found, but now I'm lost in the fray.

Starfield - Something To Say