half-formed confessions
with ripping out words from my mouth and
spitting them back; ugly, gruesome, deformed
you are not kind, or soft, or forgiving or
capable of imagining the intricacies of another human heart
you are rash and unyielding and
i hoped i would never have to meet your eyes again
but you've pushed back in and
made me feel small in the places i once felt strong
you have no right standing in my sunlight and
casting me in shadow
but i find myself weak in your dark and
there's a two letter word i can never seem to force out from behind my teeth
when you come near
S.
{Photo: Peta Clancy Works}
Why is is always so hard to say no to people who have hurt us... When I read this, I was hoping you could say no... Then I wondered if I too could say no... probably not... :-/
ReplyDeletedeep words, eerie and piquant. Saying NO is the most imp. thing in life for it makes us kick out the trash from our small and unpredictable lives
ReplyDeleteit's the hardest things to do. i hope it will get easier after a while.
ReplyDeleteOuch. You're right, they do not have a right to do that. "with ripping out words from my mouth and
ReplyDeletespitting them back; ugly, gruesome, deformed" I related with that line especially and I hope you can find your way through this.
Isn't it always like that? Beautifully expressed.
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful!
ReplyDeletesaying no, saying goodbye is the hardest.xx
ReplyDeletedreaming is believing