Thursday 8 January 2015

hollow .

it's hard to believe (no it isn't) how easily I fit back into your hand.
how our voices dance back and forth again -
as if the choreography never stopped (i'm not sure it did).
our months of silence melting into the last time i saw you
until there was no silence, only a desperate goodbye to hello-again
one after the other.
Waiting

your presence somehow cancelling out
everything that came between:
the chill of winter seeping into spring, summer, fall,
the bitterness that bled into my bones,
the side of the bed that i named loneliness (after you).

there are some things that i know in life (things that you taught me):
i know that though we work in theory
we will never work in practice
i know the clock is never on our side
i know the way the world ends is not with a bang but a whimper
(eliot warned but you showed).

but for just one day - today - lets pretend that all it takes for us to be
is what we are in this moment
that the force driving us together is stronger than all else
tomorrow we can put miles between our sea salt lips
and forget our dance for silence
but today lets say the world is what we've asked it to be
since the beginning (a place safe enough for both our hearts).

S.

4 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh, girl.. you really touch my soul with your words... they are just wow..

    I honestly feel like you are writing about 'him' and me, I know I should never give him a chance to hurt me again but a small part thinks I would let him in ... if only for a short time..

    I don't think I have to worry about that though, he won't give himself a chance to let me in... he and I were truly wonderful in theory and we could have been that way in reality; however; he wanted less than what I could offer, he wanted second best... so that is what he has and I wish him and her happiness..

    But if the opportunity arose, would I take it... in a heartbeat... although he doesn't deserve it xox

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  2. Let's end it with a bang. It's better that way.

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  3. Everything I write on here seems sort of trite, but your writing really is incredible.

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