Monday 3 March 2014

on the one who made me afraid .

i'm not sure what it was in your life that made you feel that
you had to shout to be heard 

and only violent hands could get your point across

i'm not sure what made you think of manipulation as
the only way to get what you're after
and faux-kindness something you can sell to the highest bidder (for a time)
somewhere in life you mastered the one-sided argument
and learned to twist words till they sound nothing the same as
when they came out


your voice became a siren in my nightmares
and i used to hear it right before i feel asleep, then re-awaken
heart pounding

and even after i got out, making sure i'd never cross your path again
even then i'd peek around corners and speak in hushed tones
and hold my breath when the phone would pierce through the silence

S. 

7 comments:

  1. I had that someone who made me afraid... thankfully I've been away so long... I'm no longer afraid...:-/

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  2. this is too sad to see a beautiful relationship turning into a horrifying one

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  3. i know this too well, and i'm still trying to move on x

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  4. I know this fear. I know how long it takes to get past this. Well wishes x

    Em
    Tightrope to the Sun

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  5. It would be so easy to say that you shouldn't be afraid but I've been there, I know all too well what it feels like. Stay strong.

    /Avy

    http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com

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  6. Oh love, i have been there. <3 <3 <3

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